Week 12
This week was pretty good and I am grateful. Our pool is going to open on Saturday, we got to hang out with friends this week, we only have nine days of school left, we're going to be able to get Lily's stuff out of her locker tomorrow morning, and we had Cafe Rio for dinner last night.
Monday I did laundry, ordered some gifts for people, and went for a bike ride. We have a new family that moved into our ward and they live close by so I dropped off a card and a treat as a welcome for them. I went back yesterday to take them some chairs and a table because their stuff hasn't arrived yet and got to meet him and he is super nice. I am excited to meet his wife and kids. I also watched a friend's daughter for a bit while she had a doctor appointment and it just feels good to help people again.
Tuesday I did a zoom gym cardio class and Lily joined me so that was fun. I taught three piano lessons and then my girls had dance and Curtis had a primary activity where they started building a rocket.
Wednesday we went to Target to get a birthday gift and then that afternoon we went over to the Rays to celebrate Addie's 12th birthday. My kids were in heaven playing with their friends again and it was great to do something fun and different. I spent the whole afternoon talking with my friends and it was wonderful. Michelle also makes the best cupcakes so we all enjoyed those and it was great to have the kids occupied and having fun without needing me. I've decided I am not going to stress about social distancing with my closest friends. We cannot survive the summer without friends so there are three families we've spent time with (I don't feel the need to hang with lots of others) but we're not going to stay so isolated anymore. The risk is down and life has to go on to some degree.
My kids were not happy when we had to leave but we got home, had some quick leftovers and then Lily and I headed out to go on a graduation parade for the young women in our ward. It was a lot of driving but Lily talked to me half the time and read half the time and it was fun to wave and cheer and see people. It was crazy to actually be tired that night from a busy day. But it was also my sister's birthday and the five of us met up on house party that night to celebrate. It was fun to play with my sisters and talk for a bit.
Thursday was a cleaning, piano teaching, relaxing, dancing, helping out friends kind of day. I got to talk to Jana, who hates talking on the phone but actually called me and we talked for over an hour. It was great to catch up with her. Then I had a hard conversation with a lady I love who was really upset about some stuff and it made me sad. Then another friend needed some car help so I tried to help her figure that out. I just felt kind of weighed down that day with everything that is going on. All the effects of this virus and how it has changed our lives combined with the racial injustice and the heartache it has caused combined with political unrest and all the drama and unkindness and fear and uncertainty just got to be too much. I have to purposely not think about it or else I fear it would completely overwhelm me. I am grateful for a prophet who leads and guides us and for prayer and the Holy Ghost to comfort us and scriptures that teach us and today I am fasting for peace in my heart because I just feel so frustrated and restless and confused.
Friday my kids were finishing up school work when Sarah asked if we wanted to come over and swim in their pool and we said yes! I had a grocery pick up and Lily had dance in the afternoon so we got right over there and had almost three hours to swim and chat and play. It was loud and chaotic but the kids were tired that night and I love that about swimming. We also watched some of our baking show and then with the big kids we watched the first half of Rogue One.
Saturday was not what I wanted it to be but it was relaxing and Josh taught Lily how to cut the grass and we had Cafe Rio. We also watched the rest of Rogue One and I really enjoyed it. I have only seen it one other time but now watching them all in order it is great how it perfectly sets up the next movie and I think it adds a lot of depth to the story.
Today has been okay so far. Our Sunday school class was pretty good and then I had a conversation with a friend who is struggling and it just makes me sad. So many problems and difficulties and hurt feelings. I think part of it is not being able to meet together and see each other and feel the spirit unifying us. I wish I could just fix all the problems I am aware of between people but that isn't my place and I just want people to be nice and loving and forgiving and patient and that seems hard right now. I feel like I'm at the point in a gym class where I think there is no way I can keep going but then the instructor says, "just five more!" and I think, yes, okay, I can do five more. Unfortunately, no one is here to tell me how much longer we have to endure all of this and I am having a hard time mustering the strength and energy to keep going.
Monday I did laundry, ordered some gifts for people, and went for a bike ride. We have a new family that moved into our ward and they live close by so I dropped off a card and a treat as a welcome for them. I went back yesterday to take them some chairs and a table because their stuff hasn't arrived yet and got to meet him and he is super nice. I am excited to meet his wife and kids. I also watched a friend's daughter for a bit while she had a doctor appointment and it just feels good to help people again.
Tuesday I did a zoom gym cardio class and Lily joined me so that was fun. I taught three piano lessons and then my girls had dance and Curtis had a primary activity where they started building a rocket.
Wednesday we went to Target to get a birthday gift and then that afternoon we went over to the Rays to celebrate Addie's 12th birthday. My kids were in heaven playing with their friends again and it was great to do something fun and different. I spent the whole afternoon talking with my friends and it was wonderful. Michelle also makes the best cupcakes so we all enjoyed those and it was great to have the kids occupied and having fun without needing me. I've decided I am not going to stress about social distancing with my closest friends. We cannot survive the summer without friends so there are three families we've spent time with (I don't feel the need to hang with lots of others) but we're not going to stay so isolated anymore. The risk is down and life has to go on to some degree.
My kids were not happy when we had to leave but we got home, had some quick leftovers and then Lily and I headed out to go on a graduation parade for the young women in our ward. It was a lot of driving but Lily talked to me half the time and read half the time and it was fun to wave and cheer and see people. It was crazy to actually be tired that night from a busy day. But it was also my sister's birthday and the five of us met up on house party that night to celebrate. It was fun to play with my sisters and talk for a bit.
Thursday was a cleaning, piano teaching, relaxing, dancing, helping out friends kind of day. I got to talk to Jana, who hates talking on the phone but actually called me and we talked for over an hour. It was great to catch up with her. Then I had a hard conversation with a lady I love who was really upset about some stuff and it made me sad. Then another friend needed some car help so I tried to help her figure that out. I just felt kind of weighed down that day with everything that is going on. All the effects of this virus and how it has changed our lives combined with the racial injustice and the heartache it has caused combined with political unrest and all the drama and unkindness and fear and uncertainty just got to be too much. I have to purposely not think about it or else I fear it would completely overwhelm me. I am grateful for a prophet who leads and guides us and for prayer and the Holy Ghost to comfort us and scriptures that teach us and today I am fasting for peace in my heart because I just feel so frustrated and restless and confused.
Friday my kids were finishing up school work when Sarah asked if we wanted to come over and swim in their pool and we said yes! I had a grocery pick up and Lily had dance in the afternoon so we got right over there and had almost three hours to swim and chat and play. It was loud and chaotic but the kids were tired that night and I love that about swimming. We also watched some of our baking show and then with the big kids we watched the first half of Rogue One.
Saturday was not what I wanted it to be but it was relaxing and Josh taught Lily how to cut the grass and we had Cafe Rio. We also watched the rest of Rogue One and I really enjoyed it. I have only seen it one other time but now watching them all in order it is great how it perfectly sets up the next movie and I think it adds a lot of depth to the story.
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| Emma finally got her costume. She is supposed to look like a little French girl |
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| Curtis is really sweet with little kids and that makes me happy |
I like your analogy--it would be so nice to know how much longer we have to endure all these challenges. And, even better if we had someone to cheer us on and let us know that we have almost made it!
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